like sand through the hourglass, so are the dollars through my hands


My blogger friend Amy talked about passion and how it fits into your life. Anyone who had read this blog knows I do have a lot of passions. I do not have a problem finding time for my passions, but find it difficult to find balance. One might say I have an addictive personality.

Soon I will be 45. I have a home and a family but I do not have a career, a job, a direction. Nor do I have financial security to indulge in my whims or passions.

In October 2008, I started on the road to healthy living. I have done well and will continue for as long as it takes. Which really means the rest of my life. Hopefully one day I will get to the point where I do not need to count every calorie and look for ways to cut out more calories in order to lose weight. But eating and living healthy are a lifestyle change and I'm OK with that. I had first started down this road back in 2002.

I had read 8 Weeks to Optimum Health: A Proven Program for Taking Full Advantage of Your Body's Natural Healing Power. It really helped me see a better way to live. Fortunately, unfortunately, I soon fell into scrapbooking. I was consumed by it. I felt my creative spirit come back and made new friends. I let myself go, let my house go, I spent way too much money. I began a career as online retailer so that I could save some money on my hobby. I was ignorant and naïve. I found myself with no time to scrapbook and no return on my investment. The economy and malicious hackers made me face reality and close the store down.

Last fall I started to declutter the house. Too many years of indulging in another passion, shopping online, had left the house overflowing with crap. Reading It's All Too Much: An Easy Plan for Living a Richer Life with Less Stuff helped me find the motivation I needed to just do it.

Now it's time to address another problem caused by my passions. Money. I have been good and paid my bills on time. But in the last few years, I have spent way too much and need to make a change. I am going to have to do something even worse than dieting or exercise, I am going to have to make a budget and stick with it. I hate the word budget more than I hate the word diet.

With every new interest, one of the first things I do is buy a book, or several. Wait! I shouldn't spend more money to help me save money. I can find free help on the web. But help in setting up a budget is not what I need. I know how to do it. Just like I know how to lose weight and clean up the house. What I need is motivation.

There are lots of people out there who are willing to motivate you to save money. However, their encouragement comes with a price. One of the names that I hear good things about is The Total Money Makeover: A Proven Plan for Financial Fitness. I have seen some of his ideas and they make sense. I just never wanted to admit I needed his help. I looked at his site. Oh look! He is having a sale on his books, today only. Only $10 plus $5.95 shipping. Amazon has his book for $15.74. Barnes & Noble has his book for $18.74. There is kindle version and Barnes & Noble has an ebook for $9.99.

(I did order the kindle version. No, I do not own a kindle but their is an free iPhone app I can use. I started reading but instead of feeling motivated, I feel dread and panic and nausea. I have had my head in the sand for a long time. And I am afraid to look.)